After we made love, I knew I was over. Did I really love Big or was I addicted to the pain? The exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable?

• 没什么好说的了，要说的都说完了。做完爱后，我知道一切都结束了。我真的爱他？还是沉迷于痛苦？想抓住注定抓不住的人，带来自己巨大的痛苦。