So much so that I now suspect that I am again trying to make myself believe I do regret while the confession I am making is still intellectual hypocrisy.

• 不正常的状态太久了。我甚至开始怀疑。我在竭力劝服自己相信自己确实在忏悔。而我做的以上忏悔仍然是理智的伪善。