Perhaps it is only by a kink in my nature,strong in me even in those days,those i felt in like the an existence,the share not of the outstanding majority,event amiss.

• 也许这只是我本人的一种怪诞想法，在那样的时代，这想法对我效果很深：我觉得这像大多数人相同的西方日常表达，似乎欠缺了一点儿什么。