Perhaps it is only by a kink in my nature, strong in me even in those ays, that i felt in such an existence, the share of the great majority, something amiss.

• 也许这只是我自己的一种怪诞想法，在那样的时代，这想法对我影响很深;我觉得这像大多数人一样的生活，似乎欠缺了一点儿什么。